Reverts talking about their questions and doubts…
- I did things in which I thought it would make me happy and satisfy my life, regardless of whatever the cause. I followed my own desire, this is my life. Whatever will be will be. I am a happy go lucky girl then, thinking that there is nothing wrong. I never accepted mistakes because I should live the way I want, either good or bad. I will die anyway, so why not enjoy and be happy while still alive. This was my principle before. Difficulties came but I blamed my God for allowing these to happen; I turned my back on Him. I have to go on with my life. I stood up again, continued my studies and worked day and night to earn money. Where am I going? What kind of belief I have? I am searching for the answers but I am somewhat lost. It seems there is something missing in my life but I cannot describe it. In my day-to-day life, I observed the life of people here (Islamic country). I saw the contentment in their faces, I saw their unity. I realized that this is what life is all about. I wanted to be a part of them, to know everything about the religion, about Allah… God showed me the way how to find Him through a good friend who gradually taught me the concepts of Islam. I found all the answers to the questions which had been hovering my mind ever since. The emptiness of my life before was already filled by finding who really God is. I trust Him that what I am doing and what I am living for is for Him. I accepted that whatever difficulties and trials I encountered is just a part of this life. I embraced Islam without any confusion and absolutely believed that Islam is the true religion.
- As a Christian, I do whatever I want, there is no problem. I drink whatever I want, dress the way I like, eat any kind of food, pray any time of the day. I do my obligations as a Christian…I go to church, attend seminars and retreats, and join activities related to church. One thing I do not want to do is confessing my sins to the priest. I am against it because how can I tell my sins to the same sinner like me? Somebody explained to me about Islam. And I kept reflecting about it. If I have to face the fact, observe everything that surrounds me, I will come up to the conclusion that there is only one Creator. So what I am waiting for? I embraced Islam not for any other reason but because all my questions and doubts were answered. I found the truth.
- As a Christian, it was not clear to me what Christianity is. I entered a number of religions but none of them convinced me. I had many questions that were left unanswered but I believed that there is only one God who created the heavens and the earth. I am not a churchgoer. I even don’t pray, I only pray when it is needed, those were the times when I am in difficulty. I know all along that what I was doing was very bad. I thought about the Creator and I fear Him. I am scared of my ending in the Hereafter. I wanted to renew my life.