Finding God

Reverts talking about their questions and doubts…

  • I did things in which I thought it would make me happy and satisfy my life, regardless of whatever the cause. I followed my own desire, this is my life. Whatever will be will be. I am a happy go lucky girl then, thinking that there is nothing wrong. I never accepted mistakes because I should live the way I want, either good or bad. I will die anyway, so why not enjoy and be happy while still alive. This was my principle before. Difficulties came but I blamed my God for allowing these to happen; I turned my back on Him. I have to go on with my life. I stood up again, continued my studies and worked day and night to earn money. Where am I going? What kind of belief I have? I am searching for the answers but I am somewhat lost. It seems there is something missing in my life but I cannot describe it. In my day-to-day life, I observed the life of people here (Islamic country). I saw the contentment in their faces, I saw their unity. I realized that this is what life is all about. I wanted to be a part of them, to know everything about the religion, about Allah… God showed me the way how to find Him through a good friend who gradually taught me the concepts of Islam. I found all the answers to the questions which had been hovering my mind ever since. The emptiness of my life before was already filled by finding who really God is. I trust Him that what I am doing and what I am living for is for Him. I accepted that whatever difficulties and trials I encountered is just a part of this life. I embraced Islam without any confusion and absolutely believed that Islam is the true religion.
  • As a Christian, I do whatever I want, there is no problem. I drink whatever I want, dress the way I like, eat any kind of food, pray any time of the day. I do my obligations as a Christian…I go to church, attend seminars and retreats, and join activities related to church. One thing I do not want to do is confessing my sins to the priest. I am against it because how can I tell my sins to the same sinner like me? Somebody explained to me about Islam. And I kept reflecting about it. If I have to face the fact, observe everything that surrounds me, I will come up to the conclusion that there is only one Creator. So what I am waiting for? I embraced Islam not for any other reason but because all my questions and doubts were answered. I found the truth.
  • As a Christian, it was not clear to me what Christianity is. I entered a number of religions but none of them convinced me. I had many questions that were left unanswered but I believed that there is only one God who created the heavens and the earth. I am not a churchgoer. I even don’t pray, I only pray when it is needed, those were the times when I am in difficulty. I know all along that what I was doing was very bad. I thought about the Creator and I fear Him. I am scared of my ending in the Hereafter. I wanted to renew my life.

We are Muslims all along

My twins were about six years old when the older one beat a child. So I told him to go say “sorry” to the statue of Sto. Nino because his hand beat somebody. He did not listen at first, so I told him again to go. “No, it’s not god,” he replied in a low voice. “What?” I was surprised but laughed secretly, pretended I am serious. Yes, my son was right, that statue is not god. My twin boys don’t want to eat pork even the finely-minced one. They will pretend to be eating but they will spit it out under their plate whenever I am not looking. I asked them, “Are you Muslims?”

We are actually (subconsciously) living as Muslims.

More than any wealth

Reverts talking about finding Islam as the real wealth…

  • I was at the edge many times but my inner voice keeps telling me the same thing: “That is only a trial from God [the God that I know who is up there].” I did really experienced sleeping in the streets with an empty stomach. I blamed God. What have I done? Why all these hardships? Again, my inner voice is saying: “You can make it. Do not be angry to The One above. He will not give you more than what you can bear. Why don’t you try to look for Him? And if you find Him, only then your life will be peaceful.”  I entered the fold of Islam with tears full of happiness. At that very moment, I got the strength to confront any difficulties. I can feel that I am very close to Him. I am not wealthy in material things but the faith I have discovered is more than any wealth. Islam is everything to me. There is no doubt that Islam is the true religion.
  • As human, it is but natural to envy others when I see them having more in material things. Satan is like that, he sees even the tiniest opportunity to weaken one’s faith. But Alhamdulillah! I can say I am gifted more. My daughter became a Muslim. I can say that I am rich because Allah showed me and my daughter the Right Path. To save someone from Hell is far more valuable than the whole wealth of the earth.